FAITH WITHOUT FEAR

2009-10-25T02:10:00.002+08:00

I need to learn to be able to see the best in people again
I need to learn to be less prejudiced against people
I need to love people more fervently
So God help me

Ishak mau belajar lebih murah hati, lebih show grace and become the people of the future

2009-08-30T22:06:00.000+08:00

Been a long time since i last blogged haha XD I am now officially a bible school graduate. I am attached and I have a very beautiful lovely girlfriend =) She is very sweet, she always tries to make me happy, doing little things like waiting for me to finish my drama practice even though it runs late, coming all the way to woodlands to send me home when I don't fell well, and a lot of other things. There was even one time when I had a drama practice that runs until almost midnight, she came to the studio just to go home with me while being very tired because she has gone out the whole day. =) Makes me feel loved =)

Anyway, I led praise in Indo svc for the first time this week. I think I used too much english words! haha XD I'm gonna improve though =)

2009-07-22T11:03:00.007+08:00

As Christians, prayer has always been considered as one of the most integral part of our spiritual walk. We always hear that we need to pray everyday and all that, but why do we need to pray really?

P-Power
Prayer is the breath of the believer. An average person can live 40days without food, 3 days without water, but no more than 3 minutes without oxygen. It is the same with our spiritual walk, our spirit needs prayer, it needs the connection with its maker. Without prayer our spirit will wane off and eventually we will experience 'spiritual death'. We will lose our connection with our maker, we may look happy on the outside but when we hit spiritual death we will go through life empty. Whatever we have would not matter anymore, whatever we give is insignificant, whatever we do will never bring us closer to any sense of satisfaction.
But with prayer, we can again regain the strength we have in God, we can go through life knowing that we can lean on His power, hide under His wings. When faced with a BIG problem we can tell our problem that we have a BIG God. It was prayer that brings Samson's strength back after his head was shaven off. It was prayer that gave Jesus the strength to go on to the cross.
Some years back, I was helping out in a children's church excursion to the local bird park. At that time it was the rainy season in this part of the region. Coincidentally it was pouring that day, it rained from the morning into the afternoon. It kept on raining on our way to the bird park, but as we were riding the bus to the park, I remember a kid about 8-10 years of age. He was looking at the rain and while looking kind of sad, he bowed his head, put his palms together and he prayed. He said "God please make the rain stop". And true enough, when we get to the bird park, there wasn't a single drop of rain anymore. You can see here that even the prayer of a little kid brings power, it stopped the rain! Prayer brings POWER.

R-Relationship
As we pray, there are 3 relationships we can build. First, our relationship with God. When we pray we are talking to God, we are communicating to God. Relationships are build with constant communications. The more we pray, the closer we are to God, the more we will feel Him in our life, the more we will think like Him and the more we will be more like Him.
Second, our relationship with the person we are praying for. As we pray, there is always a connection in the spirit. As we are praying for the person, we are somewhat investing in the other person's life through our spirit. We may not be there physically but as the Holy Spirit leads us in prayer, we will be sensitive to the other person's needs and we will grow closer to the person.
Third, our relationship with the person we are praying with. As the quote says, the place of agreement is a place of power. As we agree with each other in prayer, we are enforcing unity and bonds, plus there is always connection in the spirit.
Prayer builds RELATIONSHIPS.

A-Attitude
As we pray even more, our mindset would change. God would begin to challenge us to fix areas in our lives that are crooked. He will began a work of goodness in us through the spirit. We would then start to turn into better people. We will start to think like Him and eventually be like Christ.
Prayer changes ATTITUDES.

Y-You
Prayer is really about YOU. We need power for us to have strength in our lives, we need relationship because without God and others around us we are really nothing, we need changes in our attitudes so that we can do more in our lives, become more effective, become sharper, become successful.
Prayer is really for US!

If your prayer life is dying today, don't ever give up. We can always start praying again. Samson was a judge in Israel, however he 'backslided' and his prayer life wane away in the book of Judges, but he repented and he prayed again. At the time of his death he killed more Philistines that those he killed over the course of his life. He once again became the hero of his nation. We can always begin again to rebuild our altar, resurrecting our prayer life. Pray today. =)

2009-07-18T01:03:00.000+08:00

Ribuan hari aku menunggumu
Jutaan lagu tercipta untukmu
Apakah kau akan terus begini

Masih adakah celah dihatimu
Yang masih bisa ku 'tuk singgahi
Cobalah aku kapan engkau mau

Taukah lagu yang kau suka
Taukah bintang yang kau sapa
Taukah rumah yang kau tuju
Itu Aku...
Taukan lagu yang kau suka
Taukah bintang yang kau sapa
Taukah rumah yang kau tuju
Itu Aku...

Coba keluar di malam badai
Nyanyikan lagu yang kau suka
Maka kesejukan yang kau rasa

Coba keluar di terik siang
Ingatlah bintang yang kau sapa
Maka kehangatan yang kau rasa

Taukah lagu yang kau suka
Taukah bintang yang kau sapa
Taukah rumah yang kau tuju
Itu Aku...
Taukah kau lagu yang kau suka
Taukah bintang yang kau sapa
Taukah rumah yang kau tuju
Itu Aku...

Percayalah itu aku

2009-06-25T00:41:00.002+08:00

Cinta ini membunuhku - D'masiv

Kau membuatku berantakan
Kau membuatku tak karuan
Kau membuatku tak berdaya
Kau menolakku
Acuhkan diriku

Bagaimna caranya untuk
Meruntuhkan kerasnya hati mu
Kusadari...
Ku tak sempurna...
Ku tak seperti...
Yang kau inginkan..

Kau hancurkan aku dengan sikap mu
Tak sadarkah kau t'lah menyakiti ku
Lelah hati ini meyakinkanmu
Cinta ini membunuhku

2009-06-02T23:13:00.001+08:00

It's OK

Take me or leave me, don't have to believe me
All the words I have to say, all the songs that fly away
Take me or leave me, believe me good will come

It's OK, you know I'll live to fight another day
It's OK, you know I'll live to find another way

She's as pretty as hell and her eyes have no home
The beauty has run from your face
Such beauty that hung from your face
And if you would drink this wine you'll shine

It's OK, you know I'll live to fight another day
It's OK, you know I'll live to find the words to say
It's OK, you know I'll live to find another way
And if you would give me holy wine, I'll shine

Will you come to me like
A Summers Day
I will sing again

Written by Martin Smith/Stuart Garrard ©1999 Curious? Music UK

2009-05-22T00:43:00.001+08:00

mo apa lg sih km? just be thankful aja lah... haiz... CMON!

2009-05-17T09:00:00.001+08:00

Jangan dipikirin terus sakkkkkkkk >< adoehhhhhhh kacao dhe....... huaaaaaaaa......

2009-05-17T02:15:00.000+08:00

Doehhhhh.. napa sih km tuh orgnya ngangeninnnn....???? ><

2009-04-13T18:09:00.003+08:00

Lord please take away this bitterness in my heart
Even in my dreams I spite her, I must have hated her so much
Lord take it away, let love flow through me
Let me not be affected by the things she does anymore
Let me not be bitter so I can be fruitful.....

CRUCIFYYY!!!!!!!!!!!! HOHOHO =P

2009-03-24T02:25:00.002+08:00

you know i realized one thing today.. it actually feels nice to be nice.. =)

funny story, after indo service i was hanging out with andre, edward and a few other guys.. i was actually playing around with the indian accent because edward's drum sticks' brand is 'Vater'.. i joked that's how an indian would pronounce water =P anyway, andre asked me to pick up an SOT student, he gave me the name of the person, flight number and time of arrival.. at that time i automatically assumed that he is some church worker from indonesia.. few moments before i left i checked the changi airport website for the arriving terminal of the flight.. and shockingly enough, the flight is an Air India flight from Chennai.. for a while i thought andre was pulling a joke on me because of my 'stunt' form the day before.. talk about irony =P

i brought him to his lodgings and bought him an EZ-link card.. his housemates were actually impressed that i did that and surprisingly i got along well with them.. he's got two housemates, one a full timer from india and another one a pastor form korea.. they are nice people and it kind of cheered me up to make new friends.. it somehow opens up another side of me that i lost for the past few months.. =) i hung out with them for a while, and they walked me to tiong bahru and we talked for a while in mcd.. i bought the sot guy a meal.. on the way back home while i was walking.. it somehow popped up in my mind that that sot guy has never stepped out of india before and it was his first trip ever oversea and the meal i bought him was his first meal ever oversea.. it somehow makes me feel kind of important, i in some way became a part of this history that is going to unfold..

a final thought though.. it is you that has to be the one who starts to be nice.. be the intiator, the one who does things first.. it may cost you a little bit of pain in your heart but i believe it pays well in the end.. all in all, being nice is wonderful, you may not feel it rightaway, but when you see the fruit, you will have a sense of satisfaction nobody can ever give.. =)

2009-03-22T00:16:00.001+08:00

Switchfoot - Learning to breathe

Hello, good morning, how ya do?
What makes your rising sun so new?
I could use a fresh beginning too
All of my regrets are nothing new

So this is the way
that I say that I need You
This is the way
This is the way

That I'm learning to breathe
I'm learning to crawl
I'm finding that You and
You alone can break my fall
I'm living again, awake and alive
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies

Hello, good morning, how ya been?
Yesterday left my head kicked in
I never thought I could fall like that
Never knew that I could hurt this bad

I'm learning to breathe
I'm learning to crawl
I'm finding that You and
You alone can break my fall
I'm living again, awake and alive
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies

2009-03-19T00:14:00.002+08:00

all i want is just a peace of mind.. why did i even bother to care when at the end i am hurt? hahs.. looking back i guess it was all worth it? hmm.. well, it kind of is, i did learn quite a whole load of things i didnt realize about myself.. how insensitive i am, how hot tempered i am, how lonely i am, how pathetic my life is.. Robert T. Kiyosaki says "a mistake is simply a lesson with emotions attached to it". at some point i was feeling that i am turning into my father.. not that my father is a bad person, but some traits in him that i dont want to have starts to pop out.. dont get me wrong, my dad loves my sister and i very much, he is willing to do practically anything for me and my sis.. but then again, i dont mean to dishonor him, but there are parts of him i am not proud of.. and i am turning into that direction..

when pastor paul scanlon came last week, he took out a book from his bag of resources that he brought from england. it was titled "i am not my father". the title kind of struck me, here i am getting more and more like the bad parts of my dad and there it was, a book saying i am not my father. i went home that day and surf into his church's website. i found a podcast about the book. the message somehow relates to me, i dont really know what am i feeling about it, but i do know that i can now say that 'i am not my father'. we may have the same gene, we may have the same last name but who i am inside will not be determined by who my biological dad is. who i am inside will be determined by how much am i going to let my dad in heaven work in me.

i have mixed feelings in me now. on one side i am scared of going to cell group later for some obvious reason. on another i know that i was placed in that place not for nothing. i am really tired right now, all i wanted is to just go home and have a nice time at home, rest and all that. but each time i got into my computer, log on to facebook specifically, why do i have to see your name again and again? it's driving me crazy! hahs.. i wish you would just get out of my life for once. well, the emotions are still there, and i know i was the one at fault, but gosh it is so hard to recover from. i tried to write you off, tried to just ignore all these and act normal, but i just cant! why are you able to be so happy? i mean am i really just a passer by? sigh. i know saying all these isnt fair to you but i just need to let it out anyhow. i still cant bring myself to forgive you, i cant bring myself to forgive myself yet. im on the way, but not there yet. in the meantime gosh show some emotions will ya? or just be more sensitive towards me. =( (why do i even bother.. you wont even read this anyway)

a note to myself though. "YOU HAVE TO CROSS THE WATER SHAK!". cmon, i know you can do it. i understand you're under a lot of stress now, with your studies, fam problems and all but you have to be strong. remember YOU ARE NOT ALONE. He'll always be here to hold your hands each of the steps you take. RISE UP! RISE UP! RISE UP! cmon.. i know you are strong:)

2009-03-13T10:23:00.001+08:00

With or Without You - U2

See the stone set in your eyes
See the thorn twist in your side
I wait for you

Sleight of hand and twist of fate
On a bed of nails she makes me wait
And I wait without you

With or without you
With or without you

Through the storm we reach the shore
You give it all but I want more
And I'm waiting for you

With or without you
With or without you
I can't live
With or without you

And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away

My hands are tied
My body bruised, she's got me with
Nothing to win and
Nothing left to lose

And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away

With or without you
With or without you
I can't live
With or without you

With or without you
With or without you
I can't live
With or without you
With or without you

2009-03-05T02:53:00.002+08:00

The past weeks I've been asking myself. Does being nice to people really worth it? Somehow I always find myself winding up alone again each time I am facing what I would consider big setbacks in my life. I mean what are friends for really? Are they only nice to you when they need you? when they need someone to complain to, or when they need my help? I mean come on.. The world can't be that bad. Well, i do admit a lot of the setbacks I faced are self inflicted, but hey come on everyone makes mistakes, I thought friends are supposed to be supportive of one another all the time? I guess it is again my fault for not choosing better friends. Sigh. dont mind the entry.. it's just one of those 'break down'. I'll be up and running in no time =)

2009-02-03T01:36:00.003+08:00

I'm not exactly sure why I recorded this =.=
But I did have fun recording it tho=P
RJA's Face Down

face down cover.mp3 - Ishak Budiman

2009-01-22T02:00:00.000+08:00

at cyndy's request.. it retaken.. =.=

always be my baby cover 2.mp3 -

2009-01-19T18:02:00.002+08:00

Just bought a microphone for my laptop last week..
Been playing with it for a while now.. hehehe..
Here's some rough recordings of me and my guitar =-P
I really need a new guitar =.=
"Always be My Baby" - Mariah Carey / David Cook

always be my baby cover.mp3 -
"A Friend Like You" - Ishak Budiman's original ;)

a friend like you.mp3 -

2009-01-14T21:29:00.002+08:00

it just dawned on me that ill only be studying for another 7 more academic days before i am off school.. somehow it scares me a little.. it feels like im launching into an unknown terrain whereby everything is uncertain and i dont know of whats ahead there.. BUT i know that He holds my future, He knows the best for me, He will guide me into a higher ground.. though i have a lot of mixed feelings right know, missing someone, disappointed in the same person, scared, faith, excitement, etc.. i can feel my heart beating fast, its gonna be another fun journey ahead ;)

2009-01-10T01:55:00.005+08:00

Unforgettable Moments of 2008

It's kinda late to do this but i've been tagged twice so...
. Managed to get over someone who's been stuck up there for a long time
. Got reconnected again with my sister =)
. Rose up to be the zone guitarist
. Learn that most of the problems in life are self inflicted
. Having to wake up on Sunday morning to clean up my house for CG =P
. My parents got fired from their job and having to deal with the bitterness
. Got exposed to all the politics and dramas in my family
. Felt helpless for the first time
. Saw my parents starting a new business
. Had my birthday ruined yet again
. Fell in love and heartbroken within 3 months (is this a joke? =.=)
. Composed a song that actually made me cry while singing (in a good way, it was a song of comfort)
. Back on singing on Indo service
. Saw my best friends grew into men and woman of God
. Went 'cg-hopping' all over the zone (strangely i enjoyed it =X)
. Went to JB and had fun for the first time
. Attended a conference in church without having to queue for ALL sessions for the first time
. Became more philosophical and melancholy at the end of the year

2009-01-07T01:25:00.000+08:00

I'm not afraid of anything in this world
There's nothing you can throw at me that I haven't already heard
I'm just trying to find a decent melody
A song that I can sing in my own company

I never thought you were a fool
But darling, look at you
You gotta stand up straight, carry your own weight
These tears are going nowhere, baby

You've got to get yourself together
You've got stuck in a moment and now you can't get out of it
Don't say that later will be better now you're stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it

I will not forsake, the colors that you bring
But the nights you filled with fireworks
They left you with nothing
I am still enchanted by the light you brought to me
I listen through your ears, and through your eyes I can see

And you are such a fool
To worry like you do
I know it's tough, and you can never get enough
Of what you don't really need now ... my oh my

You've got to get yourself together
You've got stuck in a moment and you can't get out of it
Oh love look at you now
You've got yourself stuck in a moment and you can't get out of it

I was unconscious, half asleep
The water is warm till you discover how deep
I wasn't jumping for me it was a fall
It's a long way down to nothing at all

You've got to get yourself together
You've got stuck in a moment and you can't get out of it
Don't say that later will be better now
You're stuck in a moment and you can't get out of it

And if the night runs over
And if the day won't last
And if our way should falter
Along the stony pass

And if the night runs over
And if the day won't last
And if your way should falter
Along the stony pass
It's just a moment
This time will pass

2009-01-07T00:02:00.002+08:00

"when you lose somebody you can't look at them without crying." - Angelina Jolie

I am gonna be composed when that day comes!
I am stronger than this!
I am done wasting my life away like this!
FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-01-03T23:08:00.004+08:00

over the course of last year.. especially the last few months..
I have learnt to keep my mouth shut to certain things..
when a relationship is long term, sometimes it is just better to simply get along instead of having to keep fighting for what you want and ended up regretting..
not so much so that you become someone else, but only to the point where you actually can give in and still be happy, where we can overlook certain stuff that are unimportant and stop giving in to our pettiness..
I used to think in terms of who's at loss and all that, but at the end of the day, what matters is how you get along, how is the relationship going to improve you..
remember that your circle of influence makes you who you are..

2008-12-30T23:57:00.003+08:00

I guess it's true.. it hurts a lot less when you just simply don't care:)

how many times have you missed out on something because of getting distracted? Come on!
On the way to recovery you may find that you deteriorate a few times but you're gonna get back up still:)
You're too precious to be feeling like this..

"If one made you embarked upon a road to self misery, one does not deserve you right from the beginning.."
"If one chose to ignore that fact, one is not in the right state of mind as one is on the road to recovery as well.."

2008-12-26T01:18:00.004+08:00

when im weak, you are strong
youre my feet when i cant move on
youre the light in the dark
youre the whisper inside my heart
im all for you..

make me whole again..

Tuhan Ishak udah ngga tau harus gmn lagi.. i keep on filling myself up with positive thoughts, that i am complete, that i am meant for sth greater, that I am valuable, that aku bisa move on.. but why is it so hard this time? kalo dipikir2 it didnt last long.. it wasnt as long, it's just that i spent more and the fact that the other party moved on so fast shocked me.. am i really that easily forgettable? am i so dispensable? i feel so lost.. i feel used.. aku ngerasa aku dimainin... =( LORD You know what steps i should take.. You know what I need.. Help me to stand.. Help me make good of my wrongs.. Lord I bless her in Jesus name.. let her be happy, protect her and her family.. I bless her with good health, let her have fun back there.. Surround her with Your love God.. I know that I may not understand why are the things around me this way.. but i know one day i'd look back and laugh, look back and be glad i went through this.. if she's for me, she'll eventually be with me.. if she's not.. well.. it's her loss..:)

2008-12-25T12:29:00.002+08:00

persediaan banyak koq.. hehehehehhe =P
hati2 pada pilihanmu sak:)

2008-12-23T15:09:00.001+08:00

Yeap:) what i need is focus!:)
Gonna fast starting tomorrow..

2008-12-21T00:22:00.004+08:00

Was looking through my iTunes.. I found one of my composed songs' demo..
Somehow it speaks into me.. It isn't the best of songs but it's still a song :)

Break Free.mp3 - Ishak Budiman

Break Free
There I was outside the door
The door that leads into my heart
I know I'm standin' on a mezzanine floor
I gotta move on no matter hard

When I know all don't help me soar
They are all tearing me apart
I know I'm standin' on a mezzanine floor
Gotta make a move no matter hard

And seems like it aches, freedom aches
Let me break free oh break free

But I know
There is someone out there
There is a way that leads
To cast all cares of mine
To cast all cares of mine
And I know
There is someone out there
It's just a friend that I need
To break free, break free
From this black cloud of mine

Oh..Oh.. All I need is you, all I need is you
Oh..Oh.. I know there'll be a way, though I'm lost right now
Oh..Oh.. If the darkness surround, I know it's not the end

2008-12-16T00:29:00.002+08:00

Sak.. as that day is drawing near, you have to be strong.. you have to remember that your God is bigger than all your problems and that if you dont have the capacity for this, it wouldnt have come to you.. You are strong and you are priceless Sak! You are precious and loved:) You are gonna be fine:) it doesnt matter how many times km bikin salah lagi, bikin salah lagi, dikecewain lagi, dikecewain lagi.. it doesnt matter.. yg penting km tetep kuat, tetep belajar bediri lagi, tetep get back up on ur feet and fight it.. km pasti bisa.. God's watching over you and He will never forsake you.. cmon:) let's fight for what you want!

YOU ARE NEEDED IN THIS WORLD SAK!

i am loved=)

2008-12-09T00:08:00.003+08:00

You're an overcomer, more than a conqueror!
Discover the champion in you=)

1) Admit you made a mistake
2) Accept that you made a mistake
3) Forgive yourself and those around you
4) Be disciplined and surrender all to God
5) Rebuild what has been destroyed
6) Guard your spiritual life
It's never about how you fall, it's how you get back up again
God never keeps score of what you did wrong, He notes what you did right=)

Let's all learn to love ourselves more shall we? ;)

2008-12-08T04:49:00.002+08:00

Wow.. It's 4.45am in the morning and I just got back!
Somehow my precious big sister decided to go to Bali and come back by the midnight flight.. haha..
It's been a while since I last went out til this late..
Come to think of it the last time was... oh never mind haha..

Well, let's just list down things that I'm thankful for:)
-I am thankful that I am alive
-I am thankful that I am stronger than I thought I was
-I am thankful that Mon is back, it kinda cheered me up to have someone to make fun of(muahahhaha.. sorry mon.. just kidding^^)
-I am thankful that I am thinking more clearly now
-I am thankful for the great future God has in stored for me
-I am thankful that I can sing for service
-I am thankful that I can still dance =.=|(it was kinda awkward tho)
-I am thankful that I have great friends
-I am thankful that I have a GREAT God!
-I am thankful that I have a little bit of a twisted comedian brain =P
-I am thankful for all the 'garam' I have tasted so far
They weren't all nice, but all of them are great teachers.

I am gonna learn to be more positive! I mean CRAZY positive! =)
I'm gonna look at myself in the mirror everyday and say:
-I am the child of the most high God
-I am precious in His eyes
-I am gonna have a great life
-I look better today than yesterday(dasar narsis hehehe)
-I'm gonna be a better person today than I was yesterday!

Thank You Lord for making me the apple of Your eyes despite all my imperfection and past mistakes.. You are truly one who wipes away my past and protect my future:)

2008-12-01T14:41:00.002+08:00

This morning somehow I walked to school.. It isn’t something I would usually do.. Im not even sure why did I walked.. On the way though I started thinking.. Hmm.. I was reminded of a verse in Psalms “The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not want..”. A long time ago, each time I encounter this verse in the Bible I would just shrug off this verse as “hmm.. okay so God’s my shepherd.. I shan’t be in lack.. okay…” nothing more.. Until one time, I was a time where I listened to a sermon by Phil Pringle I think..

The second phrase of the verse in the NKJV bible was “I shall not want” well, the first time I encounter this verse I went “what??!! I shall not want??? You mean I shall not want the LORD???” But now I understand that when God is our shepherd, He’ll give everything that He has for us to the point that we are not in want of anything else.. I guess the best way to put it is that we have to trust God in everything..

When we know that He takes care of us, He is there for us, that He loves us with an everlasting love, we wouldn’t want anything else.. He is the one who is going to supply all my needs according to His riches and glory! Can you imagine the Lord of all lords, King of all kings.. He practically owns everything seen and unseen and HE WILL SUPPLY ALL OUR NEEDS!! This means that He will do exceedingly, abundantly, above ALL that we can ask or think!!!

Sometimes, yeah situations gets us down.. Lots of things don’t or won’t go the way we wanted them to be.. But during all this difficulties, hurtful seasons, God is working behind the scenes for us, making all things to work together for GOOD for us His people^^ We just have to cling on to Him, trusting Him always and letting Him do His work within us.. For we’re all His workmanship -> a work in progress.. At the end of the day, when all is said and done, we will come out stronger than when we came in, we will be a better person than that when we came in..=)

I’m gonna be more positive!=)

2008-11-30T22:37:00.003+08:00

Huff.. Somehow I feel that something different happened tonight..
The burden is still there.. But it's kinda different.. Can't be described..
Been a while since I last cried like that..
But I guess that is really how it feels like to be helpless..
My God's love will never fail me, He reigns in all my situations..
I am after all a human.. vulnerable and weak..
I couldn't fathom how did I even go through it the first time..
This time it feels harder, it feels so tormenting..
I don't wanna go back down that path...
God.. insulate me.. =(

Kasih
Ketika kudatang dengan s'gala keraguan
KasihMu s'lalu menjagaku
Ketika kurasa ku tak akan mampu lagi
TanganMu s'lalu menopangku
Ketika diriku tengg'lam dalam lautan
Hanya Engkau s'lalu yang tau

KepadaMu Tuhan, kukan berseru
'Tuk ungkapkan semua kata hati ini
KepadaMu Tuhan, kukan berlari
S'bab hanya dalamMu kutemukan kasih
Yang nyata

Yang beriku ketenangan
Di tengah badai berg'lora
Kau satu tempat berlindung
BersamaMu Ku tak akan takut

2008-11-26T01:12:00.002+08:00

"DON'T BE A DRIED UP BORING CHRISTIAN, BE A HAPPY CHRISTIAN!" - Ulf Ekman

"perceive afterward and make a choice" - Phil Pringle

2008-11-25T00:18:00.004+08:00

when you feel tired, He'll say "I will give you rest"
when you feel unloved, He'll say "I love you with an everlasting love"
when you feel that you can't go on, He'll say "My grace is sufficient for you"
when you are sick, He'll say "by My stripes you are healed"
when you are lost and confused, He'll say "I will direct you path"
when you are weak, He'll say "you can do all things through Christ who strengthens you"
when you are worried and anxious, He'll say "cast all your cares upon me"
when you feel that you are not smart enough, He'll say "I will give you wisdom that surpasses all understanding"
when you feel lonely and frightened, He'll say "I will never leave you neither will I forsake you for lo I am with you even to the end of the age"

"for even if you broke my heart and tore it apart, I will love you still forever.."

2008-11-18T17:55:00.007+08:00

belakangan ini ketika aku membaca semua entry yang ada di blog ini aku merasa "mengapa sepertinya hidupku kaya yang sedih sekali yah?"=.=.. hmm.. apakah aku ini memang seorang yang mellow dan melankolis kalo lagi sendiri ya? something to think about..

aku jadi berpikir, setiap orang tuh pasti punya topeng2 yang mereka pakai setiap hari.. dan untuk setiap orang yang mereka temui mereka akan memakai topeng2 yang berbeda.. di depan orang biasanya i have this uncontrollable need to entertain people..'=.= aku suka kalau orang disekitarku tertawa 'hahaha' kadang ada juga yang 'hehehehe' dan paling banyak ada yang 'jayus loe.. hahahahaha XD'.. tapi didalam kegilaan itu sendiri adalah orang yang sangat melankolis, mellow dan sensitif.. in fact if you really know me you'll find me as a very quiet person[citation needed] =P.. hahah..

tapi sering orang bilang 'mengapa aku jayus/garing/crispy/lame?' hmm it's probably just my style of humour.. kadang2 aku jg berpikir apakah kejayusanku itu adalah satu defense mechanism yang aku pakai untuk menyembunyikan diriku yang sebenarnya? I guess life is complex like that and people are complex too:)

anyway back to more exciting stuff^^ tomorrow would be the inaugural ASIA CONFERENCE finally after talking about it for so long^^ hehehe.. i have mixed feelings about the conference itself actually.. on one side i think it's gonna be quite a big platform for a breakthrough in my life, on another i am actually nervous about the conference for reasons i can't really explain.. but i do believe that this is gonna be a turning point for asia, i believe after this conference churches in asia will get stronger, churches of 100,000 will be a commonplace, the cultural mandate is gonna be big in asia^^ and later in my life i'm gonna look back as people talk about that conference that started the awakening of the asian churches and i'm gonna say that i was there and i was a part of the conference:) it's gonna be historical!

2008-11-17T14:10:00.002+08:00

sometimes i wonder.. most of the problems we go through is self inflicted..
wisdom is knowledge applied.. takes discipline to be wise..
knowing the answer alone isn't ever gonna be enough..

above every heartache here........................................
only you understand me.....

2008-11-15T04:33:00.002+08:00

each time i think of you
a strange warm feeling envelops me
each time i think of you
hope and love surround all of me
i can't imagine how the angels inquired of you
that day when you created me
giving me the freewill entitled only to you
letting all the choices to be made by me
you were the beginning and the end
the sun and the moon at your command they rise
that day you planned my future i can't comprehend
it must have been that rainbow in your eyes
how you imagined my life would be in this race i'll run
the bright and wonderful walks i'll have with you
let me go deeper in love with you
let me live only and only for you
let my walk speaks loud and words true
letting go all of me for all of you

for you are my strength
for you are the best i can ever ask for
for you are gonna be my first love forever
for you, only for you i'll go to the ends of the earth
for you i'll do anything
yes i'll give my life
when i think of the rainbow in your eyes..

2008-11-14T15:27:00.001+08:00

you're the one who set it up
you're the one who make it stop
i'm the one who's feeling lost right now

you made me forget and i hate that...

2008-11-13T13:08:00.000+08:00

I need to shikiraba raba more..

2008-11-12T01:42:00.002+08:00

it's okay to feel hurt sak :)
it just proves that you still have a heart..
km harus kuat sak! jgn tiap malem begini terus..
it's okay to be disappointed, life comes with its own disclaimers..
people make wrong choices, people change overtime..
sometimes consistency isn't gonna happen..
change is truly the one and only constant in life..
cry it out.. cry it out..
AAAAARRRGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

God sees you, God understands you..
He will do what is best for you..
He knows you better than you know you.. :)
He wont bring something to you that He can't bring you out of..
trust in His plan..
people fail people, but He is faithful..
let go and let God..
sometimes children takes time to get off their childhood days..
no point yearning.. no point waiting..
worth.. value.. treasure yourself sak..
kalo ngga sakit km ngga sayang sak..

sometimes what people needs is just a little push..
inget Samson sak..
inget Adam sak..
inget Daud sak..
it's not worth giving up your calling for..
cry it out.. cry it out..
kamu tau kamu sendiri ngga mungkin..
makanya kamu harus selalu inget Papa ada sama kamu..
Papa akan selalu ngelindungin kamu..
Papa akan selalu membalut hati yang terluka..
walaupun kamu salah, walaupun kamu jatuh..
Papa tetap sayang sama kamu..
Papa tetap Papa kamu..
Papa tetap ngga akan give up on you..
realize your value in Me sak..
kamu adalah anakKu yang Kukasihi..
even if you broke My heart and tore it apart, I will love you still forever..
I know what will make you eventually happy..
feel the warmth of My love..
I love you son..
it's okay.. Daddy's here.. :)

2008-11-07T09:41:00.005+08:00

Revelation 4 : 1
"After these things I looked, and behold, a door standing open in heaven. And the first voice which I heard was like a trumpet speaking with me, saying, “Come up here, and I will show you things which must take place after this.”"

Lord.. I am so tired..
Why am I fighting so hard for this?
It really feels like it doesn't even worth a fraction of my time..
It's painful, it's exhausting, it's eating me alive..

I'm tired of making all the first moves
I'm tired of being the one who gets blamed
I'm tired of being the one who keeps taking the initiative to work things out
I'm tired of being stupid..

You told me it's never about how I fell but how I got back up again that matters..
I wanna be strong, I wanna get through this..
Help me to remember the 'but God' factor..
Help me to be still and know You are God, You are my refuge, tower of strength..

I wish to turn back time and just close myself right in the beginning..
Not opening up my heart, thinking more about protecting myself..
But I know these happen for reasons only You know, to build me up, to help me be strong..
You are working behind the scenes making my crooked places straight..

Help me to love myself more God
Help me to stop being foolish
Help me to not get to the point of indifference
Help me not to be like Samson

Let me COME UP HIGHER and see the things that I am here after right from the beginning!
I am not meant to be blind, I'm meant to see the future You have PREPARED for me!
I am meant to RULE with the CELEBRATING KING!
Take a hold of me...

2008-11-03T13:01:00.004+08:00

Proverbs 3 :13
"Happy is the man who finds wisdom, and the man who gains understanding."

The verse really speaks out to me.
I was brought up in a conservative well-to-do family.
I got what I wanted, I was blessed, I went for Sunday school every Sunday.
But, as I grow up, I realize, money may answers everything, but it sure does not satisfies anyone.
Material-wise, I was blessed, well at least I don't have to worry about credit crunch and all.
However, emotional-wise, I was not developed that well.

Ever since I was small, I was not taught how to control my feelings.
I saw how a member of the family gossips about the other.
I saw bitterness, I experienced beatings sometimes kicking.
I saw how my parents fought with each other and a lot of other things not worth mentioning.
I turned out to be an extremely emotional person, very sensitive, very insecure.
I went to church just to what I now call "fulfill all righteousness".
I went to church out of guilt, out of fear, not out of delight.

The turning point was when I came to Singapore.
Well, strangely coming to Singapore was not really a decision that I was excited about.
My mom forced me to move here in the beginning but when it was time to decide she told me "up to you.". I chose to go without having any clear reason why.
My sister brought me to City Harvest.
Again in the beginning I only attend the church to fulfill all righteousness.
However, as time pass by, I got to know God, I got to know this Friend who is always standing by me.

I used to think I was always alone, that when my friends aren't there for me I really am alone.
But, that was not the case, I have experienced how God comforts, how God builds me up again and again.
To be honest, I had always been a loner, I didn't have real friends in school or anywhere for that matter.
I used to envy my friends that have cliques, always going out together, having their lunch together.
In fact, I was a very shy person(many of you will laugh, but was true.. I had very little friends)
It was in CHC that my character got developed, I became 'friendlier', more sensible.=P
There I found my best friends, the people who sticks by me through thick and thin:)
I found my Heavenly Father again, my spiritual fathers and mothers who never gives up on me ever.

But then again, the phrase 'nobody is perfect' is really true.
I still make mistakes, a whole load of them.
I really need wisdom, I always remember Sidney Mohede's words "Everyday I pray to God, 'Make me a better man that I was yesterday.'".
I want to be a better person everyday.
I want to learn to control my emotions even more.
I want to be a blessing to people around me, not a burden.

Feelings is such a tricky thing, it can make me lose my mind.
I still remember how I used to think about suicides, how I used to bang my head just to make myself feel better.(kaya mutilasi aja=.=)
Ko Yoh said "don't play with fire", I won't anymore.
It hurts me, it hurts those around me, it hurts the people I love.
Happy is the man who finds wisdom.
Teach me to be wise Lord, strengthen my heart that I can be more patient.
Help me to love others, help me to stand up again.

You're Lord my Comforter
You're God protects my soul
Oh Lord my Comforter
Oh God mends my heart
I need you..

Make me whole again Lord.:)

2008-10-25T00:40:00.002+08:00

I hear the singers' song
I hear the believers' cry
I can hear the sound of the wind
The rain is coming
The rain is coming

I feel Your power on high
I feel Your hands carrying me
Though troubles around me, I know
The rain is coming
The rain is coming

For I could fly
And I could run to You
Lord Almighty
My portion forever
And I could fly
And I could run with You
Lord Almighty
Creator of heavens and Earth

Wrote this song early this year.. No matter what, i'll keep moving on!
One day the rain will come, it is coming.. I know it will.. :)
Help me to be wise Lord, my portion, my Lord..

2008-10-12T00:28:00.003+08:00

Disaatku tak melihatMu
Kutetap percaya
Kau selalu tau yang perlu
Kau lakukan bagiku

Disaat Kau terasa jauh
Kutetap percaya
Kau selalu tau saatnya
'Tuk bertindak bagiku

Kau bekerja dengan cara yang ajaib
Dan tak terduga dipikiranku
Untuk mendatangkan kebaikan bagiku
Yang mengasihiMu

Kau bekerja dengan cara yang ajaib
Atas segala persoalanku
Untuk mendatangkan kebaikan bagiku
Yang mengasihiMu

2008-10-10T22:59:00.002+08:00

Father and Son
Father
Its not time to make a change,
Just relax, take it easy.
Youre still young, thats your fault,
Theres so much you have to know.
Find a girl, settle down,
If you want you can marry.
Look at me, I am old, but Im happy.

I was once like you are now, and I know that its not easy,
To be calm when youve found something going on.
But take your time, think a lot,
Why, think of everything youve got.
For you will still be here tomorrow, but your dreams may not.

Son
How can I try to explain, when I do he turns away again.
Its always been the same, same old story.
From the moment I could talk I was ordered to listen.
Now theres a way and I know that I have to go away.
I know I have to go.

Father
Its not time to make a change,
Just sit down, take it slowly.
Youre still young, thats your fault,
Theres so much you have to go through.
Find a girl, settle down,
If you want you can marry.
Look at me, I am old, but Im happy.
(son-- away away away, I know I have to
Make this decision alone - no)
Son
All the times that I cried, keeping all the things I knew inside,
Its hard, but its harder to ignore it.
If they were right, Id agree, but its them you know not me.
Now theres a way and I know that I have to go away.
I know I have to go.
(father-- stay stay stay, why must you go and
Make this decision alone? )

2008-10-02T00:40:00.005+08:00

It's been a while since I last posted anything that is not ambiguous.

Well, life's been pretty good for me. :)
Although I do want a lot of things in life and also a lot of things that I don't have.
I've got a lot of things that others would covet for. ;)

So, I've decided to again list down the things that I am thankful for in life.
-I am thankful that I am alive today.
A lot of people would say that being alive is a curse, or that it's nothing to be thankful for. But I believe there are certain things that you can only do when you are alive. Things like enjoying the imperfectness of this world, the pleasure of impacting and investing in people's lives, the value of company, the value of family. Life has its down side such as problems and all(I know that), but when you realize that after problems come promotions, greater ability, bigger capacity and wiser thoughts, problems never seemed to be problems anymore, they're more like stepping stones. It has its own stress that comes with it but then again life without stress is no fun at all ;) Furthermore, it's only when you are alive that you can be a blessing to other people directly^^
-I am thankful that I have a family.
My family's not perfect, but they love me. My parents would go any lengths just to make me happy, to prepare for my future, to care for me, basically they would do anything for me. My sister loves me no matter what(we do have our fights and differences, but at the end of the day, she's still the BEST sister anyone could ever have) :) I have an aunt, cousins and a lot of relatives that would dote on me. (what a good life I have.. no wonder I'm thankful that I'm alive.. haha..)
-I am thankful that I am reasonably talented.
I can play the guitar and sing better that most people I know(not to boast but it's true =P)
-I am thankful that I have a great church.
City Harvest Church is the BEST church in the whole wide world. I don't care what the critics say, I don't care what those cynics thinks, but I know what I experienced. In this church I found the meaning of life again, here I found God, here I got reconnected to Him, here I found my best friends who're there with me through thick and thin, here I got discipled, here I know about God even more, most of all, if it weren't because of this church, I might not still even be alive today.
-I am thankful for my friends.
Noone can ever ask for better friends. :)

Those are just the a small portion of things that I am thankful for. I have a great life and though problems will always come, like what my best friend said, "enjoy aja baby" hehehe.

2008-09-29T15:51:00.004+08:00

"Wisdom is the right use of knowledge. To know is not to be wise. Many men know a great deal, and are all the greater fools for it. There is no fool so great a fool as a knowing fool. But to know how to use knowledge is to have wisdom." - Charles Spurgeon

Teach me to be more wise Lord..

2008-09-15T12:52:00.002+08:00

James 1 : 2-5
"My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing. If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him."

I wanna learn to be more mature, more sensible, am going to be someone who is dependable, disciplined and joyful. :)

2008-09-11T01:49:00.002+08:00

Lord.. I am in pain.. I am crying for reasons I don't know why.. My body's tired and yet my mind's still keep on wondering.. Pondering on a lot of things that are going on..

i wanna rise up.. i wanna right my wrongs.. i feel im becoming liability.. im afraid ill be making the same mistakes again.. i dont wanna live my life in circles.. i wanna progress on.. i need to progress on..

THIS IS MY LIFE AND YET I AM NOT WHO I WANNA BE!!

Lord.. I really need You in my life.. Yeah, I need You.. You're my Lord, My Comforter.. You're God, protects my soul..

Crucify me..

2008-09-09T11:54:00.001+08:00

Ishak mau belajar sabar..
Mau belajar lebih dewasa lagi..
Mau jadi lebih seperti Yesus..
Mau jadi berkat bukan beban..

2008-09-08T11:43:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling all kinds of things lately..

I don't wanna know
I don't wanna find out
Afraid to make the same mistake
To hurt and to fail
Though I love and I yearn
God tell me please
Lord tell me please
What is this feeling?

I'm gonna fast this week.. Re-prioritize my life..
Not gonna make the same mistake.. :)

2008-08-09T01:38:00.007+08:00

Came across something I wrote sometime ago..

Cold stare of night
Wind's blowing all around
A question popped in mind
"Will my dreams ever come true?"

Been to the place where they say
"It's the land of dreams and visions!"
Still the question popped
"Will my dreams ever come true?"

Will my faith ever be enough?
Will it take me to the place where I belong?
But I believe in You

In You I found my strength
In You I got the will
To launch and never give in
In You I will be found
In You my faith and fear collide

Walking by faith and just keepin' on
Believing in You

I'm never gonna stop being crazy about God ;)

2008-06-16T17:01:00.006+08:00

Finally after months trying(kaya lg mo punya anak aja =P)

I MANAGED TO COMPOSE ANOTHER SONG!!
MUAHAHHAHA ^^

Here goes..

"Make Me Whole Again"

Take me to the place Lord
Where nothing else matters
Nothing else matters

Take me to the place Lord
Where I can see You face to face
See You face to face

Let me dwell in this holy place
Let me dwell in Your presence
Let me dwell in You

For it's where
Your power can be found
Your Spirit can be found O God
For it's where
My heart finds its rest
My soul it gets renewed my Lord
Make me whole again
Make me whole again

You are my God
You are my Lord
You are my Saviour and my Refuge

2008-06-13T09:51:00.003+08:00

The Mission - Newsboys

Newsboys - The Mission

When the runners came from Bethlehem
All breathless with good news
They were passing a baton forward through time
The commission, from God's lips to our ears
Carried by His saints two thousand years
Connects us all to the same lifeline
As I fix my eyes ahead
I can feel the Spirit's breath...

I can hear the mission bell ringing out loud and clear
It's the revolution Jesus started, and it's here
Echoing across the world from the shores of Galilee
I can hear the mission bell call for you and me...

I wanna run with fire
It's my heart's desire
Lifting your love higher...

In the history of our faith's arrivals
Great awakenings, Welsh revival
Saints and martyrs, summoned by a new birth
Patrick's save of the Irish nation
William Carey's expectation
Lambs and Lions
Called to the ends of the earth
Gotta put my hand to the plow
Not looking back, not now...

2008-05-28T23:50:00.002+08:00

All I Want is You
Music and Lyrics by Sidney Mohede

All my desire, all that I long for
I have found in You, yes it is true
My worldliness, my blind ambitions
I have crushed in You, none too soon

For all that I can gain
In seeking You
Until none of me remains

All I want is You
Surround me with the love that I long so much
All I need is You
Transform me with the changing of my heart
I'm seeking You, I'm seeking You..

2008-05-12T14:05:00.004+08:00

Alright.. It's official..
My last day of study in Republic Polytechnic would be 23Jan09.
It's drawing so damn near >.<
And the best thing is that I haven't got my mind made up on what to do next!! Hallelujah=.=!
Should I work? Should I take my degree first? Should I do both? Oh God.......

Gosh... There are so many things that I want right now!!! >.<
-I want to get a great job
-I want to have a recording company
-I want to buy a Piano
-I want to be a Cell Group Leader
-I want a business degree
-I want to go for SOT
-I want to get a new semi acoustic guitar
-I want to get married with the woman I love
-I want to take my parents all over the world
-I want to own a car and a house(at least a condo or a 4rm flat) before I'm married

Those things are possible though. They look quite feasible to me.
Hmm.. It's gonna be fun =P

Isaiah 45:2-3 (Contemporary English Version)

As I lead you,I will level mountains and break the iron bars on bronze gates of cities.
I will give you treasures hidden in dark and secret places.
Then you will know that I, the LORD God of Israel, have called you by name.

2008-05-09T12:47:00.002+08:00

我的快樂是妳想妳想的都會笑

2008-04-27T01:35:00.001+08:00

You know.. Sometimes a little reply would've been nice? ):

2008-04-08T17:00:00.004+08:00

10 Action Steps to Keep a Positive Attitude:

By Roland D. Nolen

1. Don't fall into the "misery loves company" syndrome: If you find yourself participating in a "pity party" at work, politely excuse yourself. These parties are a fantastic drain on your time and energy, and they don't solve any problems.

2. Avoid "poison" people: You know who they are! They are the ones who are always complaining, being negative, or are quick to criticize your ideas. Since you may not want to totally eliminate them from your life, just arrange things so you only have to deal with them in small "doses."

3. Don't watch too much TV: When you're stressed or feeling down, a planned few minutes of watching TV can turn into hours.

4. Spend time with your kids, family, and friends: Instead of spending hours with the TV, rearrange your schedule and give some of that time to family and friends. I have young kids who think I am the "human crane." Pick them up, carry them, and twirl them, you name it, I do it. I must admit there were times when all I really wanted to do was just sit on the sofa, but my kids wouldn't let me. The amazing part, though, was that I always felt better each time after being exhausted.

5. Take a half-hour to an hour a day to motivate yourself: Read motivational books or listen to motivational tapes. I highly recommend the following:
a. What Makes the Great Great by Dennis Kimbro
b. Over the Top by Zig Ziglar
c. The Aladdin Factor by Jack Canfield & Mark V. Hansen
d. The Power of Focus by Canfield, Hansen, Hewitt
e. Live Your Dreams by Les Brown
f. If It's Going To Be, It's Up To Me by Robert Schuller
g. The Bible

6. Take an hour a day to become an expert: I got this idea from one Jack Canfield's tapes, where he talks about how you can take one hour a day to become an expert in your area or develop other marketable skills. You don't have to exhaust yourself trying to "cram" in new skills or expertise. An hour a day will get you where you want to be quicker than you think.

7. Try new things: Overcome the fear (i.e., fear of failure, rejection, or pain)! When you're learning or doing a new sport or hobby, you don't think about what's bothering you. Last year, I tried snow skiing for the first time, and now I am hooked! Believe me, when I let one of my daughters (who had taken lessons) talk me into going down a "blue" hill on my first day, I wasn't thinking about my "problems" while I was tumbling down half the mountain! My daughter later told the whole family how she had never seen anyone fall the way Daddy did.

8. Exercise: We all know about the physical benefits of exercising, but to me that's just a side benefit. The real payoff of exercise is the mental stress relief. When you're "gasping for air," your thoughts are very simple. Most important, regardless of how badly you may feel when you start exercising, you will always feel better when you're done.

9. Pray: It doesn't matter what your religion is or beliefs are, you need to pray to ask for the help and guidance you need. I'm not an expert in this area, but I know it works!

10. Reward Yourself: Set small goals or steps, and reward yourself on each accomplishment. Don't constantly worry or "burn-out," take time to relax and "smell the roses."

2008-03-25T02:58:00.004+08:00

The Bucket List
"A list of things to do before you depart to the other side"

Well, lately I have been feeling that I should list down things that I want to achieve in this lifetime. I feel that knowing what you want to do in life gives you an edge in achieving them. In any case the KJV Bible says that "without vision, the people perish". So well here goes, the list of things currently in my mind, there may be more to come. The list looks more like a wish list though. =P

-Preach to 5000 people in a single meeting
-Have a US$10mil net worth by 40(Hallelujah deh hahah)
-Have my own concert in front of at least 5000 people
-Be slim(duhhh =.=")
-Be an accomplished singer/songwriter
-Win a Dove award
-Compose a Grammy nominated song(cross fingers =X)
-Compose a Grammy winning song
-Own my own recording company
-Start and pastor a church in Bandung that would first take my hometown by storm then the rest of Indonesia, Asia then rest of the world.
-Be in a band which albums go platinum
-Own a mansion, 5 apartments and a 4-star hotel(amin deh)
-Own an island^^
-Buy my parents a mansion
-Buy Swanie a mansion
-Buy Menny a mansion(gila)
-Buy Ko Yoh a mansion(lebih gila lagee kalee)
-Get married with the right WOMAN
-Have a romantic love story with my wife to be
-Have a girlfriend who looks like Acha Septriasa (apa coba?? haha)
-Be in the Time magazine top 100 most influential
-Guest at Lateshow w David Letterman(please don't go off air before I appear XD)
-Guest at EllenDeGeneres show (gw ngga perlu Oprah deh hehe =P)
-Guest artist at Grammys
-Take another picture with Rev.Kong Hee
-Take a picture at the top of one of the Egypt pyramids
-Take a picture at the Eiffel tower
-Take a picture at Jesus' tombs
-Give an accumulative of US$2mil to charity
-Give a US$1mil tithe
-Give a US$2mil tithe
-Be one of the cast of Extravaganza, Saturday Night Live and one of the most successful sitcoms in Hollywood
-Go to all 5 continents
-Take picture with a live Polar Bear
-Give a graduation speech at Bedok View Secondary School
-Give a graduation speech at Republic Polytechnic

2008-01-27T12:48:00.000+08:00

Isaiah 45:2-3 (Contemporary English Version)

As I lead you,I will level mountains and break the iron bars on bronze gates of cities.

I will give you treasures hidden in dark and secret places.

Then you will know that I, the LORD God of Israel, have called you by name.

2008-01-14T23:15:00.000+08:00

Habakkuk 2 : 3
"For the vision is yet for an appointed time;
But at the end it will speak, and it will not lie.
Though it tarries, wait for it;
Because it will surely come,
It will not tarry."

Visions and dreams, that's what we have been talking about much lately. God-given dreams, a destination that is to be achieved. Sometimes I don't understand or rather things around me just don't make any sense at all. I don't understand how does my current situation could change into something beautiful, how listening to the Word, reading the Word, coming to cell group even twice a week, setting my weekends off just for church, keep chasing people to come down for CCA, doing unending admin work, and a lot more could lead me to where I want to be, whether all this things would eventually shapes me and produce the 'me' that will do great things on regular basis. How am I suppose to shake the world? I am doing so much of unconventional things, things that I, even I don't understand.

Recently, I watched the George Clooney movie Michael Clayton. It was a rather deep movie. I did not understand the plot of the story for the first one hour that I was watching. But as each scene is being played, one by one it pieces into one giant picture and by the end of the movie I could understand the plot. It's just the same with God's plan I guess. I won't understand the significance of it. I won't find any sense in going through all this now, but "..at the end it will speak, and it will not lie. Though it tarries, wait for it; Because it will surely come, It will not tarry.". All I have to do now is to keep staying positive and focus on the destination.

Habakkuk 3 : 17-19
"Though the fig tree may not blossom, Nor fruit be on the vines;
Though the labor of the olive may fail, And the fields yield no food;
Though the flock may be cut off from the fold, And there be no herd in the stalls—
Yet I will rejoice in the LORD, I will joy in the God of my salvation.
The LORD God is my strength; He will make my feet like deer’s feet,
And He will make me walk on my high hills."

2007-11-26T00:49:00.000+08:00

Everyone needs compassion
A love that's never failing
Let mercy fall on me
Everyone needs forgiveness
A kindness of a Savior
The hope of nations

My Savior
He can move the mountains
My God is Mighty to save
He is Mighty to save
Forever
Author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave

So take me as You find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything I believe in
Now I surrender

Shine your light and let the whole world see
We're singing for the glory of the risen King...Jesus

2007-11-22T22:26:00.000+08:00

Been trying out new things with the way I play guitar lately.. Hehehe.. I want to be able to play the melody and at the same time the chords also when I'm playing in cell group.. Hehehe.. Had it tried out last week on God of My Forever song, did not go so well though, missed a few notes.. =P Tomorrow I'm going to try again at N390.. Hehe.. Ci Ayen's leading, Heart of Worship and Through it All.. I'm trying to smoothen out the tunes.. Hope it goes well tomorrow.. Heheh.. It's always exciting when you are doing new things heheheheh^^

2007-11-19T00:01:00.000+08:00

There I was outside the door
The door that leads into my heart
I know I'm standin' on a mezzanine floor
I gotta move on no matter hard

When I know all don't help me soar
They are all tearing me apart
I know I'm standin' on a mezzanine floor
Gotta make a move no matter hard

And seems like it aches, freedom aches
Let me break free oh break free

But I know
There is someone out there
There is a way that leads
To cast all cares of mine
To cast all cares of mine
And I know
There is someone out there
It's just a friend that I need
To break free, break free
From this black cloud of mine

Oh..Oh.. All I need is you, all I need is you
Oh..Oh.. I know there'll be a way, though I'm lost right now
Oh..Oh.. If the darkness surround, I know it's not the end

A new song I just wrote.. The longest one ever man.. Hahaha.. It's called Break Free, my close friend suggested me to name it that way... Hahaha.. It's about going through trials of life and about moving onto the next level no matter hard it is.. Most probably gonna enter this song for a song writing competition.. Well, not sure yet.. Hehehehe..

2007-11-15T15:15:00.000+08:00

And love is not the easy thing
The only baggage you can bring...
And love is not the easy thing...
The only baggage you can bring
Is all that you can't leave behind

And if the darkness is to keep us apart
And if the daylight feels like it's a long way off
And if your glass heart should crack
And for a second you turn back
Oh no, be strong

Walk on, walk on
What you got they can’t steal it
No they can’t even feel it
Walk on, walk on...
Stay safe tonight

You're packing a suitcase for a place none of us has been
A place that has to be believed to be seen
You could have flown away
A singing bird in an open cage
Who will only fly, only fly for freedom

Walk on, walk on
What you've got they can't deny it
Can’t sell it, can’t buy it
Walk on, walk on
Stay safe tonight

And I know it aches
And your heart it breaks
And you can only take so much
Walk on, walk on

Home... hard to know what it is if you’ve never had one
Home... I can’t say where it is but I know I'm going home
That's where the hurt is

I know it aches
How your heart it breaks
And you can only take so much
Walk on, walk on

Leave it behind
You've got to leave it behind

All that you fashion
All that you make
All that you build
All that you break
All that you measure
All that you steal
All this you can leave behind
All that you reason
All that you sense
All that you speak
All you dress up
All that you scheme

Another song lyrics.
Walk on by U2....
Sometimes I kept thinking "will i ever move on?", I've made too many mistakes just simply by not moving on. Gotta learn to walk on.. Hehe.. =P
"And I know it aches
And your heart it breaks
And you can only take so much
Walk on, walk on "
IT'S NEVER GONNA BE EASY, but I'll walk on^^
Hehehehe.. Like what Barack Obama's slogan reads : CHANGE WE CAN BELIEVE IN.. ^^

2007-11-13T14:49:00.000+08:00

Cant bring myself to say 'I miss you'
Though my heart it cries 'I want you'
No words to say, no picture to describe
I'm just pulled by your vibe

'I love you' I dreamt of tellin' you
Countless times I deny but I'm needing you
No words to say, no picture to describe
I'm just pulled by your vibe

Inches away my heart's breaking
I just cant say that I'm loving
You

Girl I'm goin crazy for you
My eyes they just see you
Affection arrows they shot through me
But you're just unconquerable to me
Tears shed, emotions drained
Does love has to be this way?
I sure cant find the answer

When will I ever........? Hahs...

When everything in me is like everything I hate

2007-10-30T02:45:00.000+08:00

When everything inside me
Looks like everything I hate
You are the hope I have for change
You are the only chance I'll take

I wanna be a better person tomorrow than I am today and the next and the next. I've been feeling down lately.... I am not satisfied with who I am today and what I have right now. Been looking at what I don't have and what I am not yet to be. Though I know I'll get there where I wanted one day, but it doesn't stop me to resent who i am today. How I always failed myself in all my expectations, how I have disappoint people time and time again.

But just now it strucked me, I have to stay positive no matter how. Because I know once I get negative, once I grumble and resent myself or my life, it's never gonna get better and I'll get into worse situations. I have to learn again to be thankful with what I have today, who I am today.

So here's a list things that I am thankful for:
-I'm happy 'cos I'm alive - there are people in the world who struggles just to eat their next meal.
-I'm happy 'cos I can eat and enjoy food!!^^ - I love food!! Hehehe and thank God I am born with a functional digestive system.
-I'm happy that I am able to study in Singapore - Some Indonesian even struggles to pay their own school fees in Indonesia.
-I'm thankful that I have a family - parents that love me, who're willing to work their sweaty asses off to raise me =P; a sister that loves me, that has changed me in ways nobody ever could; Aunt that loves me and provide for me even act as my parent; cousins that are there for me when I need them. etc..
-I'm thankful that I am in City Harvest Church - A church that is big and also strong in quality is hard to come by, I am glad that Ko Ed, Ko Yoh and all my leaders has spent a considerable part of their time to invest in the imperfect me, one that would disappoint them and most of the time break their heart but they never give up on me.
-I'm grateful for my church family - Great people, people who grew alongside with me; Menny, Jeff, Andre, and the rest, it's really comforting to have people who you can relate to^^
-I'm grateful that I can play guitar
-I'm grateful that I can sing
-I'm grateful that I can lead
-I'm grateful that I am outgoing and I have sufficient oral skills
-I'm grateful that I don't get cold feet easily
-I'm grateful that I have a laptop
-I'm grateful that there are so much things I can be thankful for^^

I have a pretty good life =P

This is your life, ARE YOU WHO YOU WANT TO BE?

2007-10-26T09:23:00.000+08:00

This Is Your Life

Yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead

Yesterday is a promise that you've broken

Don't close your eyes, don't close your eyes,

This is your life.

And today is all you've got now.

And today is all you'll ever have.

Don't close your eyes.

This is your life, are you who you want to be?

This is your life, is it everything that you dreamed

That it would be when the world was younger,

And you had everything to lose?

Yesterday is a kid in the corner

Yesterday is dead and over.

This is your life, are you who you want to be?

This is your life, are you who you want to be?

This song makes me think, if I were to die today,
am I everything I wanted to be? am I who I dreamed that I would be?
I want to look back and say that I've done what I could accomplish and I'm content with my life..
I'd get to that place one day, each day passed is a day closer to my goal^^ :)

Lies

2007-10-22T23:14:00.000+08:00

"That was the trouble with lies - each one created the next in a never ending spiral."
-Jeffrey Archer

The Rain is Coming

2007-10-19T15:05:00.000+08:00

I hear the singers' song
I hear the believers' cry
I can hear the sound of the wind
The rain is coming
The rain is coming

For I could fly
And I could run to You
Lord Almighty
Creator of heavens and Earth

I just know one day, I'd get to where I'm supposed to be, I'd be who all I wanted.
As long as I am flying with You

How Golf Is Like Urinating In A Restroom

2007-10-16T15:12:00.001+08:00

1. Keep your back straight, knees bent, and feet shoulder-width apart.
2. Form a loose grip.
3. Keep your head down.
4. Avoid a quick backswing.
5. Stay out of the water.
6. Try not to hit anybody.
7. If you are taking too long, you should let others go ahead of you.
8. You shouldn't stand directly in front of others.
9. Be quiet while others are about to go.
10. Keep strokes to a minimum.

8.30AM

2007-10-05T08:32:00.000+08:00

Linear today..
I'm so sleepy.. >.<

Life's Reflections

2007-09-28T08:53:00.000+08:00

1. Never raise your hands to your kids. It leaves your groin unprotected.
2. I'm not into working out. My philosophy is no pain, no pain.
3. I'm in shape. Round is a shape.
4. I'm desperately trying to figure out why Kamikaze pilots wore helmets.
5. Do illiterate people get the full effect of alphabet soup?
6. I've always wanted to be somebody, but I should have been more specific.
7. Ever notice when you blow in a dog's face he gets mad at you, but when you take him in a car he sticks his head out the window?
8. Ever notice that anyone going slower than you is an idiot, but anyone going faster is a maniac?
9. You have to stay in shape. My mother started walking five miles a day when she was 60. She's 97 now and we have no idea where she is.
10. I have six locks on my door, all in a row. When I go out, I lock every other one. I figure no matter how long somebody stands there picking the locks, they are always locking three of them.
11. One out of every three Americans is suffering from some form of mental illness. Think of two of your best friends. If they are OK, then it must be you.
12. They show you how detergents take out bloodstains. I think if you've got a T-shirt with bloodstains all over it, maybe your laundry isn't your biggest problem.
13. A lady came up to me on the street, pointed at my suede jacket and said, "Don't you know a cow was murdered for that jacket?" I said, "I didn't know there were any witnesses. Now I'll have to kill you too".

I'm 18 Hehe..

2007-09-27T01:24:00.000+08:00

Oh man I'm 18 now! Hohoho.. =P

Before anything,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY VON!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LINNY!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALTON!
Hohoho!!

Had quite a lot of fun today hahaa..

Me and Linn hehe^^

Thank you Swan.. Love u^^

And a Doraemon frm Meiyin^^ Thank you hehe..

Thank you all you guys for wishing me happy birthday thru smses, fs comments and calls, etc.
Especially tt person who called while i was on my way home just now^^ Hehe..

Fuhh.. Parents coming down tomorrow nite.. Gotta clean my room and stuff haha..
Gonna be a long nite now hehehehehe... =P

Cheers ;)

E44F

2007-09-17T23:14:00.000+08:00

My new class was fun^^
So far the people are great hehe..
Had lotsa fun today :)

Cheers ;)

Me now =P

2007-09-14T02:43:00.000+08:00

It's been a long time since I last blogged. Haha..
Life's been great as always!! =P Hehe..
Niwae.. hehe.. It's confirmed now that I'm not expelled or deported or anything close to that.
On top of that I passed all my modules.
Well, let's just say I learnt my lessons hahaha.
I'm gonna focus on my studies more this semester onwards haha..
Gonna be a geek for a while.. =P Hohoho..
Might be excusing myself from various commitments that which I have yet to decide.
That's all academic-wise. Hehe.. ;)

Damn hormones haha.. I gotta control 'em even more these days.
Hehehe.. Andre's voice keep resounding in my ears.. Haha
"Celibacy"!!Hahahah.. Well.. As what most people would say, "Easier said than done."
Today's the start of the third day since that day, Hahs.. I even dreamt of her!!
OMG!! This is bad.. :( Damn hormones!! Hope I can get this over with ASAP!

Niwae.. haha.. My PP is due this October and all I have done up to now is the proposal!
Hahaha!! I'm gonna start doing later on today after I get off work.. Haha.
Work! Yes! I'm now working.. Muahahaha. At Fish and Co. AngMoKio Hub.
Hahah. Linn one of my supervisors apparently is playful like me. She gave me 'L' for my uniform! Haha.. Totally expose all my spare tyres and all! Hohoho..
But really had fun there, the people are nice and I enjoy myself a lot! :)

Well that's all for now =P

Cheers ;)

Employee Handbook

2007-09-07T00:41:00.001+08:00

Dress Code
It is advised that you come to work dressed according to your salary. If we see you wearing $350 Prada sneakers and carrying a $600 Gucci bag, we assume you are doing well financially and therefore do not need a raise. If you dress poorly, you need to learn to manage your money better, so that you may buy nicer clothes, and therefore you do not need a raise. If you dress just right, you are right where you need to be and therefore you do not need a raise.

Sick Days
We will no longer accept a doctor's statement as proof of sickness. If you are able to go to the doctor, you are able to come to work.

Personal Days
Each employee will receive 104 personal days a year. They are called Saturday & Sunday.

Bereavement Leave
This is no excuse for missing work. There is nothing you can do for dead friends, relatives or co-workers. Every effort should be made to have non-employees attend to the arrangements. In rare cases where employee involvement is necessary, the funeral should be scheduled in the late afternoon. We will be glad to allow you to work through your lunch hour and subsequently leave one hour early.

Restroom Use
Entirely too much time is being spent in the restroom. There is now a strict three-minute time limit in the stalls. At the end of three minutes, an alarm will sound, the toilet paper roll will retract, the stall door will open, and a picture will be taken. After your second offense, your picture will be posted on the company bulletin board under the "Chronic Offenders" category.

Lunch Break
Skinny people get 30 minutes for lunch as they need to eat more, so that they can look healthy. Normal size people get 15 minutes for lunch to get a balanced meal to maintain their average figure. Fat people get 5 minutes for lunch, because that's all the time needed to drink a Slim-Fast.

Thank you for your loyalty to our company. We are here to provide a positive employment experience. Therefore, all questions, comments, concerns, complaints, frustrations, irritations, aggravations, insinuations, allegations, accusations, contemplations, consternation, and input should be directed elsewhere.

Have a nice week!

The Management

Things You Would Never Know Without The Movies

2007-08-19T01:09:00.000+08:00

During all police investigations it will be necessary to visit a strip club at least once.

All beds have special L-shaped cover sheets which reach up to the armpit level on a woman but only to waist level on the man lying beside her.

All grocery shopping bags contain at least one stick of French Bread.

The ventilation system of any building is the perfect hiding place. No-one will ever think of looking for you in there and you can travel to any other part of the building you want without difficulty.

If you need to reload your gun, you will always have more ammunition - even if you haven't been carrying any before now.

You're very likely to survive any battle in any war unless you make the mistake of showing someone a picture of your sweetheart back home.

A man will show no pain while taking the most ferocious beating but will wince when a woman tries to clean his wounds.

When paying for a taxi, don't look at your wallet as you take out a bill - just grab one at random and hand it over. It will always be the exact fare.

Kitchens don't have light switches. When entering a kitchen at night, you should open the fridge door and use that light instead.

If staying in a haunted house, women should investigate any strange noises in their most revealing underwear.

Word Processors never display a cursor on screen but will always say: Enter Password Now.

Mothers routinely cook eggs, bacon and waffles for their family every morning even though their husband and children never have time to eat it.

The Chief of Police will always suspend his star detective - or give him 48 hours to finish the job.

It is not necessary to say hello or goodbye when beginning or ending phone conversations.

All bombs are fitted with electronic timing devices with large red readouts so you know exactly when they're going to go off.

It is always possible to park directly outside the building you are visiting.

A detective can only solve a case once he has been suspended from duty.

It does not matter if you are heavily outnumbered in a fight involving martial arts - your enemies will wait patiently to attack you one by one by dancing around in a threatening manner until you have knocked out their predecessors.

When they are alone, all foreigners prefer to speak English to each other.

Any lock can be picked by a credit card or a paper clip in seconds - unless it's the door to a burning building with a child trapped inside.

An electric fence, powerful enough to kill a dinosaur will cause no lasting damage to an eight year old child.

Faith Switched On

2007-08-14T01:42:00.000+08:00

Just a little song I just wrote, it's gonna be called "Faith Switched On". :)
The melody's not finalised yet . Hehe.

When things around don't go my way
Bleak days took me on
Sorrow's just a step away
Time to switch my faith on

Hope fades off my heart
Coldness saturated my gut
Despair resided on
Time to switch my faith on

Through the deepest valley I know
Up the highest mountains You flow
In dark or shine You're here
If only I call

With Your strength I carry on
Pressing forward with my faith switched on
Under Your wings I'd fly and run
Not caring of the pain and grunt
All in all I'd just see You
"Well done" You'd say as come i back to You
Pressing forward with my faith switched on

Dreams

2007-08-12T00:09:00.000+08:00

Was on the way home from church just now..
Decided to alight at AngMoKio instead of taking the train straight to Woodlands.
While on the bus, suddenly it struck me that I really have lotsa dreams.. haha
Becoming a businessman, actor, singer, song writer, pastor, motivational speaker.
Owning a mansion with a lake in the garden, a farmhouse, a private jet, etc.
So many dreams.. haha
Niwae.. It just drove me to jot down some unmelodied lyrics again. ehehehe.

Cold stare of night
Winds blown all around
A question popped in the mind
"Will my dreams ever come true?"

Been to the place where they say
"It's the land of dreams and visions!"
Still the question popped
"Will my dreams ever come true?"

Will faith only suffice?
Will it take me to where I belong?
But I believe in You

In You I found my strength
In You I find the will
To launch and never give in
In You I will be found
In You my faith and fear collide
Walking by faith and just keepin' on
Believing in You

Undeserved

2007-08-07T15:04:00.000+08:00

Was reading Joel Osteen's 'Your Best Life Now'..
Suddenly got reminded of Joshua Harris' 'I Kissed Dating Goodbye'..
Got reminded of how undeserved I am..
But yet God still loves me
God still smiles on me
Wrote some lyrics down... No melody yet..

I'm at loss of words
When I see the wonders
None I can utter
Just when I think about your love

Man of your fame
Came to take me in
Undeserved as I am
Yet I'm under your wings

Loving me as I am
claim me as yours
With all my imperfections
But you smile on me still

I can never find one like you
Who can take me and bring me up
Love me with an everlasting love
I can never find one like you
Who'll love me more than myself
Gave me life and die to set me free

There's just one
There's just one
There's just one like you
My God

Words Women Use

2007-08-06T13:59:00.000+08:00

1.) Fine: This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right, and you need to shut up.

2.) Five Minutes: If she is getting dressed, this means half an hour. If she is telling you only 5 more minutes of television, she means it.

3.) Nothing: This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in "Fine". (See defintion #1).

4.) Go Ahead: This is a dare, not permission - Don't Do It!

5.) Loud Sigh: This is not actually a word but a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to #3 for the meaning of nothing.)

6.) That's Okay: This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. "That's okay" means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

7.) Thanks: A woman is thanking you - do not question or faint. Just say you're welcome.

8.) Whatever: Is a women's way of saying "%@&* YOU!"

9.) Don't worry about it, I got it: Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking "what's wrong" - for the woman's response. (Refer to definition #3.)

How To Clean A Cat

2007-08-05T02:49:00.000+08:00

1. Thoroughly clean the toilet.
2. Add the required amount of shampoo to the toilet water, and lift both lids.
3. Take the cat and soothe him while you carry him toward the bathroom.
4. In one smooth movement, put the cat in the toilet and close both lids. You may need to stand on the lid so that he cannot escape. Caution: Do not get any part of your body too close to the edge, as his paws will be reaching out for anything they can find.
5. Flush the toilet three or four times. This provides a "power wash and rinse" that I have found to be quite effective.
6. Have someone open the door to the outside and ensure that there are no people between the toilet and the outside door.
7. Stand behind the toilet as far as you can, and quickly lift both lids.
8. The now-clean cat will rocket out of the toilet and run outside, where he will dry himself.

untitled poem/song hahaahha

2007-08-02T23:21:00.000+08:00

5AM in the morning
Woke up to find that you're gone
Have I been dreaming
Is is real that I'm alone

You've been the last thing
Yes you're the last thing
On my mind each night
Thoughts of you doesnt make it right

I close my eyes and I dream of you
I open my eyes, feel empty without you
Oh girl you got me so blind
You got me to find
Do I have the reason
The reason to love again

5 Questions to be avoided by guys

2007-07-31T12:39:00.000+08:00

1. What are you thinking about?
2. Do you love me?
3. Do I look fat in this?
4. Do you think she is prettier than me?
5. What would you do if I died?

What makes these questions so difficult is that each one is guaranteed to explode into a major argument if the man answers incorrectly (i.e. tells the truth). Therefore, as a public service, each question is analyzed below, along with possible responses.

Question #1: What are you thinking about? The proper answer to this, of course, is: "I'm sorry if I've been pensive, dear. I was just reflecting on what a warm, wonderful, thoughtful, caring, intelligent woman you are, and how lucky I am to have met you."

This response obviously bears no resemblance to the true answer, which most likely is one of the following: a. "Football." b. "Golf." c. "How fat you are." d. "How I would spend the insurance money if you died."

Perhaps the best response to this question was offered by Al Bundy, who once told Peg, "If I wanted you to know what I was thinking, I would be talking to you!"

Question #2: Do you love me? The proper response is: "Yes!" or, if you feel a more detailed answer is in order, "Yes, dear."

Inappropriate responses include: a. "Oh yeah, sh*tloads." b. "Would it make you feel better if I said yes?" c. "That depends on what you mean by love." d. "Does it matter?" e. "Who, me?"

Question #3: Do I look fat? The correct answer is an emphatic: "Of course not!"

Incorrect answers are: a. "Compared to what?" b. "I wouldn't call you fat, but you're not exactly thin." c. "A little extra weight looks good on you." d. "I've seen fatter." e. "Sorry, what did you say? I was just thinking about how I would spend the insurance money if you died."

Question #4: Do you think she's prettier than me? Once again, the proper response is an emphatic: "Of course not!"

Incorrect responses include: a. "Yes, but you have a better personality." b. "Not prettier, but definitely thinner." c. "Not as pretty as you when you were her age." d. "Define pretty." e. "Sorry what did you say? I was just thinking about how I would spend the insurance money if you died."

Question #5: What would you do if I died? A definite no-win question. (The real answer, of course, is "Buy a Ferrari and a boat.")

No matter how you answer this, be prepared for at least an hour of follow-up questions, usually along these lines:

Woman: Would you get married again?
Man: Definitely not!
Woman: Why not -- don't you like being married?
Man: Of course I do.
Woman: Then why wouldn't you remarry?
Man: Okay, I'd get married again.
Woman: You would? (With a hurtful look on her face)
Man: (audible groan)
Woman: Would you sleep with her in our bed?
Man: Where else would we sleep?
Woman: Would you put away my pictures, and replace them with pictures of her?
Man: That would seem like the proper thing to do.
Woman: And would you let her use my golf clubs?
Man: She can't use them -- she's left-handed.
Woman: (silence)
Man: Sh*t.

Til I met You

2007-07-30T00:36:00.000+08:00

Never felt this way before
Never thought this way before
'til I met You
'til I met You

Search my whole live to find a thing
To erase the emptiness within
'til I met You
'til I met You

You taught me to love
You taught me to care
You taught me to live my life
Like I'm never once alive
'til I met You, I've never known
I am made for eternity

I love You
I love You
I love You so...

How to sell a bible.....

2007-07-29T22:43:00.000+08:00

Three little boys were looking for a summer job. Their preacher needed some people to go around and sell Bibles, so the preacher hired two boys without even thinking twice. He was hesitant about hiring the third boy because he suffered from a speech impediment, but hired him anyway.

So after the first days of work, they all met back at the church. The preacher looked at the first boy and asked him, "How many bibles did you sell?"

The boy stood up and said, "35."

"Is that all you sold?" the preacher asked.

"He looked at the second boy and asked him the same thing.

The boy said, "75."

"That's good," the preacher replied.

He didn't want to ask the third boy but did. The boy with the speech impediment said, "I-I-I s-s-sold 175."

The preacher was amazed and asked the boy how he managed to sell all those Bibles.

He said, "I-I-I t-t-told them to b-b-buy t-t them or I will r-r-read it to t-t-them."

I'm sorry

2007-07-27T13:04:00.001+08:00

Inspirational Quotes for the Cubilce Era

2007-07-26T15:33:00.000+08:00

Rome did not create a great empire by having meetings; they did it by killing all those who opposed them.

If you can stay calm while all around you there's chaos, then you probably haven't completely understood the seriousness of the situation.

Doing a job right the first time gets the job done. Doing the job wrong 14 times gives you job security.

Eagles may soar, but weasels don't get sucked into jet engines.

Artificial Intelligence is no match for Natural Stupidity.

A person who smiles in the face of adversity probably has a scapegoat.

Plagiarism saves time.

Never put off until tomorrow what you can avoid altogether.

Teamwork means never having to take all the blame yourself.

We waste time, so you don't have to.

Hang in there, retirement is only 30 years away!

Go the extra mile. It makes your boss look like an incompetent slacker.

A snooze button is a poor substitute for no alarm clock at all.

When the going gets tough, the tough take a coffee break.

Indecision is the key to flexibility.

Aim Low, Reach Your Goals, Avoid Disappointment.

Top 8 Signs You're Burned Out

2007-07-26T01:03:00.001+08:00

8- You're so tired, you now answer the phone, "Hell..."

7- Your friends call to ask how you've been, and you immediately scream, "Get off my back, bitch!"

6- You wake up to discover your bed is on fire, but go back to sleep because you just don't care.

5- You have so much on your mind, you've forgotten how to pee.

4- Visions of the upcoming weekend help you make it through Monday.

3- You sleep more at work than at home.

2- You leave for a party and instinctively bring your ID badge.

1- You think about how relaxing it would be if you were in jail right now.

I love and miss you too

2007-07-26T00:25:00.001+08:00

swanie-go-blog.blogspot.com
"Ishak, makasih buat jadi pillar buat cicimu ini. you are always there whenever i needed you. Kadang aku suka mikir, kamu lebih dewasa...lebih wise...lebih eloquent. i Thank God for you. i Love you and miss you."

I miss you too swan...:(
It's really different without you around..
Noone I can look to when I need someone.. :(

Sick Sick Sick!!!! :(

2007-07-25T10:01:00.000+08:00

Dear God I'm sick..
Hahs.. Been running a fever since yesterday afternoon.
Sore throat and flu..
Running nose.. The nose run so fast that I have to ride a bicycle to catch it... X(
I'm coughing too hahs...

Yesterday was torturing..
Went to school while feeling sick.
Conducted Replug meeting also while feeling sick.
Tried hard to hide my sickness. Huehh..
After the meeting ends I couldn't take it..
Went to BK and eat with Jimmy.
I know I shouldn't be eating BK but well... XP
Then went to Causeway Point..
All the way I was feeling awful..
My head was spinning and hurting.. Haiz..
All those times spent waiting for Jimmy to cut hair, smoke were torturing.. :(
Haha...

Went home and settle Replug stuff..
Haiz... So many things to do so little time.
Hard to disseminate the tasks to my committee...
At the end slept at around 2AM. :(

I hate it when I'm sick!!! :(
Especially when I've got sore throat... X(

The Truth

2007-07-24T22:48:00.000+08:00

At school, a boy is told by a classmate that most adults are hiding at least one dark secret, and that this makes it very easy to blackmail them by saying, “I know the whole truth” -- even when you don't know anything.

The boy decides to go home and try it out. As he is greeted by his mother at the front door he says, “I know the whole truth.” His mother quickly hands him $20 and says, “Just don't tell your father.”

Quite pleased, the boy waits for his father to get home from work, and greets him with, “I know the whole truth.” The father promptly hands him $40 and says, “Please don't say a word to your mother.”

Very pleased, the boy is on his way to school the next day, when he sees the mailman at his front door. The boy greets him by saying, “I know the whole truth.” The mailman drops the mail, opens his arms and says, “Then come give your FATHER a big hug.”

I believe in them

2007-07-23T23:20:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I just see myself in them...
Wkt mrk lg berantem..
Wkt mrk lg ngeguyon..
Mank pacaran itu smuanya mirip ya?
Tp knpa mrk sering brantem gara2 simple stuff gitu ya?
Mirip wkt gw ma Joleen wkt dulu..
Hahs.. Gw pengen banget bilank tuh cowo kelewatan..
Tp.. I believe tt everything's possible..:)
Kdng kdng memank orgnya bisa keterlaluan tp everything can be worked out.

Trus the other one..
Ktnya mo putus..
Eh malah jadi lagi...
Make up ur mind donk..
Ah well, this time hope everything go well with em..
Like what I said, kdng orgnya keterlaluan tp everything can be worked out.

Gw ngga bisa bilang gw ngga affected.
Gw jadi ngga bisa ngobrol ma dia..
I know gw ngga kenal dia bae..
But it's been a nice experience..
Hahs.. Well, cos I care I guess. ;)

I believe in them. :)

Cheers;)

Mistakes

2007-07-23T11:47:00.000+08:00

There is no such thing as perfection in life.
Because life is not a mathematical equation where every equation has a solution.

Everybody makes mistakes.
That would include me.
No matter how hard we try, how far we got, we'll make mistakes.
We are not perfect.
Humans are not made perfect.

Sometimes we just have to overlook the mistakes that others made.
Overlook the disappointment they made us feel.
Overlook all those stuff, because we are not perfect.
Just have to learn to love.
Learn to forgive.
Learn to forget.
I am learning myself.

Really, what does it profit us to hate or to condemn people?
It would just give us emotional nightmares.
It would suck away our joy.
Waste away our energy.

We just have to learn to forgive.
At least learn to not to talk negatively.
Remembering it when people do nice things for us.
Stop looking at them in a bad light.
And start blessing them.

I am learning.
I am still learning.

Quiz

2007-07-23T01:14:00.000+08:00

Your IQ Is 105

Your Logical Intelligence is Below Average

Your Verbal Intelligence is Above Average

Your Mathematical Intelligence is Exceptional

Your General Knowledge is Above Average

A Quick and Dirty IQ Test

I didn't know that I'm not that logical.. haha.. =P

Cheers;)

Lisa

2007-07-22T00:32:00.000+08:00

Here is a story of someone I know
She's so fine oh so pretty
More than just a face I know
She's so fine oh so pretty

Down she came into my life
Bring a smile noone could ever give
Still now she's in my life
Give me reason to believe

Life is more than just so much stuff
More than just food
More than just fun
More than just stupid infatuations
She's been a friend to me
And forever you'll be..
Lisa...

Happiness.. a way of thinking :)

2007-07-20T23:09:00.000+08:00

Staying positive is never easy.

I wanna be smiling everytime people see me.
I wanna be known as the optimistic guy.
I wanna be the one bringing solutions to people.

It's never easy though, I care a lot of those around me.
Each time they have problems I'll at least talk to them and listen.
Each time they need help I'll help them in any way that I can.
But in the end.. like the LP song.. it doesn't even matter.
What people look for would be more than just consistency.
More than just a one time touch.
I may have been there once when they were down, but just when I do things they don't like, they just turn their back at me.
Condemn me for things that would sometimes were not even close to what I did.
I really feel for those people.
I want to help them.
I want to get them out of that abyss.
An unstable inconstant sea of emotions.

Myself, I am not perfect.
I do get emotional lots of times.
I do act 'manja'.
I do disappoint people.
But please just know that, I am doing my best.
I really am.
But again the key is not to please people.
Cos humans are made unappeasable.
I can only do so much.

I keep telling myself to stay positive.
I keep looking for the brighter side of the story.
I do see them.
But the fact that they are there still does not change the fact that there will still be the negative side.
Like a dry cell, life will always have the two sides.

Staying positive is never easy.
But I'm gonna press on.
I'm not gonna let people or things around me lose my joy.
Kejadianku dashyat dan ajaib :)

Cheers;)